Our imperfections are messy, intimidating, and you might be feeling lost or confused in this season of your life.
Our imperfections feel like pressure - pressure to be the perfect mom, the perfect wife, the perfect business owner, the perfect friend. And when we fail, it hits us hard.
You can stand through anything when you stand in His abundant grace. Because, friend, it's in our imperfections that Christ makes His perfections shown. He loves us today like He loved us yesterday and like He will love us tomorrow, imperfections and all.
My story has been imperfect, too.
Over the last few years, my life has been turned upside down. I’ve walked through years of unexplained infertility, an extremely premature birth of my son at 23 weeks, the loss of two baby boys in 2016, and then again in 2017. This past year we decided to try again with IVF and have been blessed with a pregnancy and are expecting a baby girl this winter.
But life didn’t suddenly become perfect as I delivered our miracle son, Mason at 23 weeks, I was at a loss for words for a long time. We spent five months in the NICU, and we were told that our son had no chance of survival and that if he did survive, he would never live a normal life.
Praise the Lord because that is not the case and he is healthy with many hurdles overcome and some still ahead of us. I am embracing the gift of a being a special needs mama.
It was through that experience that I found myself at a point in my life where I had a choice to either stay strong, be positive, and get grateful for my son and my family, or not.
I knew that I needed to choose joy and live my life on God’s strength, not mine. I knew that the only way the three of us would survive this was to choose the little-by-little progress in each day, as some days were life and death within those five months and even after coming home. I can say this honestly, that no matter the circumstance, suffering, or journey, He is simply calling us closer, and will never leave us. He is using these moments of digging, pruning and planting, in our lives to connect with us on an even deeper level as He is teaching us and revealing Himself to us.
Choosing to be intentional and live IN HIS purpose with what each moment brought became my mission.
Knowing that I could not do all things well, I had to decide what I could do well to live an abundant life in His purpose and say no to the things that put pressure on me and took me off course.
The miracle of my son, along with everything that has followed thus far has proved that purpose is found in Him, that the purpose of faith is faith alone. Our life experiences are a part of a unique faith journey that draw us closer to Him, leading us to live abundantly in Him. We are never alone, never without purpose, never without His love.
I PROMISE YOU FRIEND, HE WASTES NOTHING IN YOUR LIFE. IT IS ALL FOR HIS GLORY AND HE WILL REVEAL THIS TO YOU IN THE IMPERFECT MOMENTS OF YOUR DAYS.